Lost and Found

I want dessert.

2010-05-17T20:15:00.001-07:00

I really really really want a warm chocolate chip cookie out of the oven right now.

It's a good thing I'm too lazy to bake some.

I don't like the canned stuff but...

2010-05-11T18:58:00.000-07:00

When God invented pineapple, it must have been at the beginning of His work day. And I'm thinking celery was right before He turned in for the night.

CRAZY for CRAISINS!!!!

2010-05-10T19:19:00.000-07:00

Stupid little Craisins.

I added some to my salad to "liven" it up so to speak (I'm so sick of salad with vinaigrette) and now it's all I can think about. 1/8 of a cup is a point. Which isn't that bad, but it seems like by the end of the day I have nothing left! And you can eat an entire cup of carrots, or an apple for a point, so it really doesn't make much sense to eat that little tiny bit of sweet little yummies.

plus they are RIDICULOUSLY expensive.

No more Craisins after this bag is gone. But I'm going on a quest for new yummy salad stuff. It's my mission this week. To find the perfect low point salad.

Here I go!

Cilantro lime rice

2010-05-10T13:57:00.000-07:00

http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Cilantro-Lime-Rice/Detail.aspx

Here is the recipe I used,except I used instant white rice. The way to go would be brown rice, but I had none.

This is 4 points for 1 cup.

Mother's day dinner

2010-05-09T16:36:00.000-07:00

Mother's day was a complete disaster. We were sick, either stuff coming up or going out too fast the other way. So Mother's day has been moved to Thursday. I've been feeling better though and decided to pull out a freezer meal I made a couple of weeks ago. I love having these freezer meals ready if I don't have time to cook. I'm very glad I did them and can't wait to cook some more.

I need to fine tune this recipe. But basically I thinned out chicken breast with a mallet. I creamed together low-fat cream cheese, green onion, lemon and garlic. Then layered fresh spinach, fresh basil leaves, and the cream cheese. Rolled them up and baked them for 45 minutes covered. Then 10 minutes uncovered. I don't know the points value of this. Like I said, I'm going to make this again with some changes and figure out the points.

I served this with cilantro lime rice and fresh salad with walnuts and Craisins.

One point? You can't be serious!

2010-05-05T13:44:00.000-07:00

Hello little one point treasures.

http://www.pringles.com/en_US/Pages/Fatfree.aspx

14 chips = one point. Or 70 calories, 0 grams of fat, 1 gram of fiber.

If I would recommend you to invest in the stock market, I'd say to invest in the Pringles company, cause I'll be buying these quite frequently.

They are made with Olestra oil. Which I think is the stuff that gives you diarrhea if you eat too much. So that's what's awesome, you can't eat a lot of them anyway. Or you might poop your pants.

I said poop.

Nacho every day craving

2010-05-04T18:12:00.000-07:00

Most women have an easy way to deal with stress of everyday life. What's better than chocolate to calm a mother. Forget about that dirty laundry and 3 hours of homework about mathematical equations that we never actually needed EVER but have to pretend for the sake of the child so they themselves don't go insane.

But then they decided to take chocolate and insert it into another stress reliever...

I know. I know what you are thinking. Your best buds ever.

That's right. Ben and Jerry. Are you drooling yet?

You know what? It does nothin for me. Doesn't get me excited by the smallest little bit. Chocolate fudge brownie ice cream. Chocolate, yes. Heck yes. Fudge, oh give me fudge and I might pounce. And brownies...brownies with walnuts...I'd cave in a minute. Well, seconds.

But then you stick the whole thing together and ruin it...by adding it to ice cream.

BUT, I'm not saying I don't have my own thang.

What's better than relaxing after a long day with a huge bag of

Nacho. Cheese. Doritos.

*wiping drool off chin*

So I did a little research about Doritos.

Turns out Doritos in Spanish means...

"Little bits of gold."

Heck yes they are.

Day five and kickin trash.

2010-05-03T20:59:00.000-07:00

I've been back on track for five days now and I have that feeling of empowerment back. In the past weeks I've felt angry, mad, frustrated, sad, but mostly scared. The weight comes back so so so much faster than it comes off.

Totally. Not. Cool.

I woke up this morning sleepy, for no good reason at all. But I found the whole day that I was cranky and just wanted to eat eat eat. But I didn't, I stayed within my points range. I have always known (and you do too) that I am a stress eater. But apparently I also turn to food when I'm tired. I even tried a nap. And I really wanted a 44 ounce diet Dr Pepper but I've even been limiting my diet soda intake. I'm actually drinking a cold glass of protein water for dinner.

Apparently someone came up with a name. Milk. Who knew?

Seriously though, when you are counting every point (or calorie for those of you not familiar with Weight Watchers) you have a tendency to use those two points for something else...like cheese, or meat, or chocolate. You know something you can chew. But our family has committed to milk with dinner every night. I miss my diet Pepsi, but this makes me fuller, less bloated and gassy and when I'm 65 hopefully I won't look anything like this due to Osteoporosis.
Future Jeannie...

She's shaking her fist because it's 2045 and no one has come up with zero calorie chocolate yet.

So try a cold glass of milk with dinner tomorrow night. Its good. Seriously. Cause if you drink it you could look like this...

Creamy Chicken salad

2010-05-01T11:29:00.000-07:00

I decided to create a healthy version of chicken salad. I recently had one that was so yummy, I tried to mimic it. I think it turned out so good! This makes enough for 3 if you add a lot of lettuce and tomato. It's 3 points per serving before the bread or tortilla.

3 ounces of cooked chicken
1 ounce cashews
1/2 cup grapes
1/2 cup celery
1 tablespoon of diced onion
1 tablespoon mayo made with olive oil
1/2 teaspoon garlic powder
lettuce
tomato
whole wheat bread or tortilla

I'm back

2010-04-30T13:51:00.000-07:00

Well, I've been on a couple months vacation from blogging, and unfortunately watching my weight. I've gained a bunch back (I'll get it posted as soon as I can). It's depressing how fast it comes back on. ): I got bored with blogging but I think I'm going to turn this more into a personal overall blog. Maybe including more recipes, crafts, this and that. And I'm sure lots of whining. Cause that's what I created it for in the first place.

I know I promised a picture but...

2010-03-03T21:23:00.001-08:00

I can't find my camera charger!!!!!!! Casey took this picture of me playing Laser Tag today so I thought I'd throw it up there! It was such a great time! I love doing things like this! Such a blast!

oh oh oh oh oh!!!!!

2010-02-24T07:07:00.000-08:00

Ok, so I wanted to do a Marathon this year but I've been so busy I haven't had time to train. But check this out! Layton is having it's first marathon but it's not in the summer like everyone else's! It's in the fall...October 9th!!! That gives me PLENTY of time to train. I'm so excited I think I might just pee!!!

You start on Antelope Island and then run across the bridge and end at a park in Layton. Just imagine how fast you would run with buffalo chasing you.

http://www.laytonmarathon.com/

If I could get to my goal weight...and graduate this Spring...and complete this marathon...

I'd be one happy camper.

I'm not sure if this is a joke, or a true story!

2010-02-22T20:48:00.000-08:00

Although I knew I had put on a few pounds, I didn't consider myself overweight until the day I decided to clean my refrigerator. I sat on a chair in front of the appliance and reached in to wipe the back wall.

While I was in this position, my teenage son came into the kitchen. "Hi, Mom," he said. "Whatcha doin', having lunch?"

I started my diet that day.

-- Betty Strohm

New Goal

2010-02-22T11:19:00.000-08:00

I set my goal at 150 because that's the highest weight you can weigh to get your lifetime membership at Weight Watchers. But right now I'm barely squeezing in a size 12. I doubt losing 11 pounds will put me at a size 8ish.

Maybe once I get there I will re-evalute my goals?

To Cassie's boss...

2010-02-18T19:02:00.000-08:00

Oh how I love thee.

WHAT?

2010-02-18T13:37:00.001-08:00

Jeannie actually finally reached her 55 pound goal???? You've got to be kidding me!

Yep I did. Woooooo hooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

New picture coming first Thursday in March, promise!

Organizing and cleaning

2010-02-17T18:42:00.000-08:00

Today I started organizing and cleaning the dumping grounds of the house...the office. If we are living in an increasingly paperless world, why do I have stacks and stacks of stuff!!! It looks like we have to move from our cute little house in the cul de sac. So I've started purging and cleaning big time today. Don't I have enough to deal with right now! Ugh, just venting. I'm hoping for a big loss this week, as I've stepped up the dieting big time. I can't wait to get that 55 pounds and see the 150's!

Whale or Mermaid?

2010-02-16T15:14:00.001-08:00

Got this forward from Marie and thought you'd think it's funny.

Recently, in a large city in a poster featuring a young, thin and tan woman appeared in the window of a gym. It said, "This summer, do you want to be a mermaid or a whale?"

A middle-aged woman, whose physical characteristics did not match those of the woman on the poster, responded publicly to the question posed by the gym..

To Whom It May Concern,
Whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, sea lions, curious humans.)
They have an active sex life, get pregnant and have adorable baby whales. They have a wonderful time with dolphins stuffing themselves with shrimp. They play and swim in the seas, seeing wonderful places like Patagonia, the Bering Sea and the coral reefs of Polynesia. Whales are wonderful singers and have even recorded CDs. They are incredible creatures and virtually have no predators other than humans. They are loved, protected and admired by almost everyone in the world.

Mermaids don't exist. If they did exist, they would be lining up outside the offices
of Argentinean psychoanalysts due to identity crisis. Fish or human? They don't have a sex life because they kill men who get close to them, not to mention how could they have sex? Just look at them .... where is IT? Therefore, they don't have kids either. Not to mention, who wants to get close to a girl who smells like a fish store? The choice is perfectly clear to me: I want to be a whale...

P..S. We are in an age when media puts into our heads the idea that only skinny people are beautiful, but I prefer to enjoy an ice cream with my kids, a good dinner with a man who makes me shiver, and a piece of chocolate with my friends. With time, we gain weight because we accumulate so much information and wisdom in our heads
that when there is no more room, it distributes out to the rest of our bodies.
So we aren't heavy, we are enormously cultured, educated and happy. Beginning today, when I look at my butt in the mirror I will think, ¨Good grief, look how smart I am!¨

I'm sad.

2010-02-15T16:50:00.000-08:00

I totally wasted this semi-day off that I had. I guess I just didn't want to think about anything. And now I'm thinking off all the things I could have done with it.

Ya know?

I just...

2010-02-13T19:13:00.001-08:00

baked 24 warm beautiful chocolate cupcakes frosted with creamy white frosting and sprinkles, topped with big conversation hearts for my young women's church class...

and I didn't even lick a drop.

THAT'S what I'm talkin about.

Hahahahahahaha

2010-02-12T14:04:00.000-08:00

Weight watchers...

2010-02-11T12:28:00.000-08:00

Today's meeting was about the importance of making yourself a priority.

You've seen me slowly do this over the months. Although right now, with this internship, I'm a little overboard with "me" time. Poor Casey never has "me" time because he's always watching the kids while I'm at the gym, not making any money, paying to work actually. Which makes really no sense to me whatsoever. (:

But I guess I want to make sure that it's understood that you do what you need to do to make yourself a priority. And that includes everything. If you feel right about doing something, don't let anyone tell you that you can't.

Because you can.

You have it inside you to make yourself the best you were meant to be. And it's not selfish, it's smart. It's a necessity.

Because when you discover that power you can spread it to everyone around you better than if you are trapped under your own discouragement and hate.

Seriously now

2010-02-09T16:55:00.000-08:00

I promise this Thursday I'm going to take the time to write down all my weights for the past times I haven't posted it and get them on my side bar!

I'm finally almost back to my weight before Christmas though, according my my scale. UGH! It was totally not worth it I keep telling everyone.

I was the biggest loser for the week in the competition I'm in, and I won a free photography session, which I'm way excited about because our family needs one soooooo bad! We'll probably have those done sometime in March when the kids are off track.

Well, hope all is well with you. Keep on keepin on!

I wish I could describe...

2010-01-21T21:28:00.001-08:00

...what it feels like to teach Zumba.

The feeling of inspiration knowing people are looking for your guidance,

With the tummy turning of being nervous for the first day of school,

Combined with the adrenaline of your first kiss.

All wrapped up with the warm hug of your best friend.

Friday came and went, didn't it?

2010-01-20T07:29:00.000-08:00

Ok, here's the deal, I can't seem to find the time to write entire blog posts, but you can find me on facebook for now. Under the email address caseyjeanniem@msn.com

So crazy busy!!!!

Love you all! I'll try to post here and there...I'm doing ok though, trying to lose the weight I gained over Christmas!

I had no idea

2010-01-12T13:12:00.001-08:00

it was going to be this hectic. I mean I knew it was going to be crazy, but I didn't know it would be THIS crazy.

I'm doing ok though. I'm on track eating wise. I'll post again on Friday.

You guys...

2010-01-09T15:42:00.001-08:00

I'm having a terrible time.

I don't know if it's stress...

But I can't keep my cravings in control. I just want to eat eat eat eat. I mean, I'm doing better than I was but I'm still not doing good enough to win a freakin competition.

What do I need to do? All I can think about is chocolate and Alfredo and bad for you bread sticks. When I just had all that just the other day. But now that I can't have it...

...it's all I can think about.

I just wandered into the kitchen and peeled myself an orange. And if you know me, that was a big deal. (I hate peeling oranges with a passion.)

I can do this! I know I can!!!

It's time it's time!!!

2010-01-08T13:10:00.000-08:00

No, it's not time for Bella's birthday party...

It's time for Jeannie's Biggest Loser competition!

I weighed in this morning for an 8 week biggest loser competition at my gym. The grand prize is...wait for it...wait for it...

ONE THOUSAND DOLLARS!

So yeah, I'm pretty excited. Plus each week there is a prize for the biggest loser of the week like a facial or massage or giftcards. I'm hoping that this will be the extra push I need to lose that last bit of weight!!!

Weight Watchers!!!

2010-01-05T06:03:00.000-08:00

You all know what a big fan I am of Weight Watchers...why don't YOU join? I'm excited because I heard through the grapevine that Weight Watchers is starting a new 2010 program (they do something new every year anyway) but I heard that this one is going to be AWESOME! That's pretty much all I know for now. I will find out Thursday what the new program is and I'm totally excited to get energized! I hope the room is PACKED full of people to find out how to change their lives!!!

This morning I went to Zumba with Angie and she rocked the house as usual!

I'll be weighing in this Thursday. It ain't gonna be pretty. I think I gained about 8, yes EIGHT pounds over the past month. I'm excited though because I'm joining a Biggest Loser competition starting Friday. And I'm planning on winning the thing. I'm not worried about losing the 8 pounds...I think they'll come right off. We're gonna rock it!!!

Alfredo sauce...

2010-01-04T17:54:00.001-08:00

DARN YOU!!! DARN YOU ALL TO HECK!!!!

Good bye vacation...

2010-01-02T19:11:00.000-08:00

Monday I start my externship and need to somehow rack up 20 hours a week. I'm scared! Plus Jordan starts basketball, and Casey Jr. has swim lessons. It's gonna be a stressful next few months. I'm sure we'll learn a lot from our trials and triumphs to come!

Happy New Year!!!!

2010-01-01T16:23:00.000-08:00

Well, I'm officially well rested from blogging and plan to pick it up again! I hope you all have decided to make your New Year's resolutions and put a plan into a affect so you never have to make them again!

I started off my new year at Angie's Zumba New Year Party at the Aquatic Center. She let me do a song (I picked the warm up song) so I got to teach in front of 64 people for the first time! It was the most amazing feeling in the world! All the energy from all the people...and all those people committing themselves to being healthier. Not to mention an hour and a half of exercise! Wow!

I have to give props to Julia, Misty, and Melissa for coming to support me. And Marie watched the kids so I could do it. I love you girls!

Naughty or Nice?

2009-12-21T16:08:00.001-08:00

So you know how alcoholics will spike regular drinks with a little alcohol?

I feel like one.

Cause I've been spiking my diet pepsi with about a teaspoon of grenadine.

You know...that cherry flavored syrup?

I feel so naughty ever time I do it, because I know it's a lot of calories.

But I can't stop!!!!

AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

What I learned in college.

2009-12-15T23:01:00.000-08:00

Your ability to achieve anything begins from within. How you fight that battle will determine your success.

I can't make you.

Only you can.

Find it.

What does a fellow dieter give instead of a goodie plate?

2009-12-14T22:38:00.001-08:00

Five toed socks of course. Feeling loved....

Today is one of those days...

2009-12-14T17:00:00.000-08:00

...when you think you are doing some good, but nothing you try to do seems to be going right.

So what to do?

Remember the things that we already have and say "I'll take it." to the little bit you got accomplished. Then, get ready for tomorrow.

Cause there's always tomorrow if you tried your best today.

PAIN IS TEMPORARY...

2009-12-11T22:39:00.001-08:00

...FAILURE IS FOREVER.

Can you believe it, I weighed in!

2009-12-10T12:02:00.000-08:00

Life has been busy, but I made it to weight watchers today and I'm so happy to report that I'm down half a poundish.!!!!

I haven't been to the gym like I should, so I've been trying to just maintain over Christmas. Looks like I'm riggity rockin it!!!

I'm going to get back to the gym as soon as I can though! Tomorrow for sure!

Hope all is well with you!!!

The Green Shake

2009-12-07T11:10:00.001-08:00

Isn't it pretty?

My mother-in-law introduced me to these. I'm way excited.

You can make it with whatever you want...but it's the spinach that gives it the pretty green color.

This one is...

One banana
One cup of fresh spinach
One light yogurt (apple turnover)
One cup of 1% milk

Truthfully, I can't taste anything but banana. This would fall into the category of "Raw Food diet" and "Vegetarian" diet. You could skip the milk ingredients and add nuts or soy protein powder to make it "Vegan".

Yay!

December...

2009-11-29T19:17:00.000-08:00

Hey, for those who are still reading my blog, thank you! But I have to admit, I'm pretty bored with it. I think it's time that I take a break. I find that it's really hard for me to think of something to write, and with December being so crazy, well you get the idea. So I'll be posting my weight and anything that comes to mind. Hopefully I'll be ready for something in January that inspires me to pick it back up!

Thanks for the ongoing support. Find me on facebook or email me if you need anything!

New Moon hangover

2009-11-20T17:56:00.000-08:00

Sorry, guys, New Moon consumed my life for a while there.

It. Was. Epic.

So I went to bed at 3 this morning and then woke up at 7 with the kiddos and decided to hit the gym.

I know, I know. Dedication, right?

And when I was done with the gym I thought, oh crap, Weight Watchers will be closed next Thursday. I didn't weigh in last week. I REALLY need to go weigh in for the week.

So I did.

And was surprised to discover that a night of Italian food and New Moon mania until the wee morning hours, didn't keep me from rockin' it.

And when I say rockin' it, what I really meant to say was, riggity rockin' it.

Because, my dear awesome blog followers, I did it.

I've lost 50 pounds!

ZUMBA!!!

2009-11-15T23:02:00.000-08:00

Well, it's official!

I got my Zumba certification!

I had so much fun at the workshop! Our master instructor was Jenna Bostic and she had just flown back from teaching a workshop in Sweden. How cool is that? She was AMAZING! My favorite part of the day was when we got to make our own part of a routine and teach it to the other students.

Can you see me over to the side? See I'm happy with this picture because not only do I have the correct foot up but I'm actually in step with everyone else.

The little part we taught was really good, seriously it really was.

This is Jenna. Isn't she adorable! She was such an inspiration. She was so funny! Did I mention adorable?

Isn't it funny to think of what I was doing a year ago...I was still in the 200's. It seems like forever ago. Isn't it amazing what a year can do?

Going dark

2009-11-12T07:17:00.000-08:00

Won't post again until next week.

Have an awesome weekend!

To run or not to run?

2009-11-10T22:20:00.000-08:00

I've been getting quite a few comments and emails about running.

"It's not fun." is the consensus.

Agreed.

Running (jogging and walking) really isn't fun to me either. It's the feeling afterward that makes it all worth the burning lungs and shin splints. There are two main reasons I love running.

First, I find competitive sports to be less Christlike than other sports. So, that's why I love running. It's not about beating everyone else's time, it's about beating my own time. Improving upon myself. Ya know?

Second, It's fun to finish something. I'm known for procrastination and eventually leaving projects unfinished or sloppily completed. When you compete in a 5K, crossing that finish line is one of the biggest highs in the world. YOU finished it. That makes you a winner and not a quitter.

I want to compete in a marathon so I can freakin say, "I finished a marathon." Seriously, no other reason. Maybe it'll be in my obituary.

Jeannie Ann Mineer died this weekend at 103 years of age in her vacation home in southern Ireland. Her accomplishments in life included accidentally discovering the cure for cancer while serving a mission in Brazil and how to make diet Pepsi taste more like regular Pepsi. She mothered four children, all of whom have Doctorates and frontiered world peace.

She claims her greatest accomplishment of life, had to have been completing a marathon. Because dang it, it was a good conversation starter and she set out to do it.

Also, she got a shiny gold medal that said "Marathon finisher". She wishes to be buried with it, in hopes she might be able to wear it around her neck in the spirit world. You know, to be good at SOMETHING with a bunch of perfect people.

Best news EVER.

2009-11-10T13:28:00.000-08:00

Imagine if you will, a thirtysomething mother of four who's daily life revolves around changing diapers, fetching bananas, and scaling mountains of laundry. Now close your eyes and see her leaving it all behind for four days of time spent with awesome friends and a full day devoted to getting her Zumba certification. Would you be excited for her?

I sure am.

Well pooey

2009-11-05T10:33:00.000-08:00

Don't get excited, I didn't make my 50 pounds this week.

I actually didn't even come stinkin close! But I did work really hard this week, so I'm proud of myself. I put in a lot of hours exercising and even though I didn't lose much weight, I know I'm healthier because of it.

I do have some really exciting news though.

It's picture day!!!!

It has to do with the line.

Remember? It's been one of my goals since the beginning and those of you that have been with me since the beginning will remember. I don't care about having abs (although I am trying to grow one) all I want is that line that runs down the middle of the stomach.

Well. I sorta have one. And Casey managed to catch it on camera. Although not well, I must say. It's all blurry.

First I gotta start with my super fat picture.

Oh wait that's not it. I always get that one confused with this one...

And here is October's picture!

And now...look REALLY close and you can sorta see it...THE LINE!!!

Cassie's reply

2009-11-04T21:34:00.000-08:00

Here is Cassie's reply to my venting about smashed fruit loops and the question of why don't I just go back to being fat? Love you Cass!!!

Cassandra said...

Well, 20 years from now you will be sitting at the wedding of your now five year old who's just as spontaneous, welcoming your now 18 month old home from his mission and he'll still want to be held by his mommy, congratulating your most recent college graduate who no longer pees in his pants, and greeting your little girl who at 27 has given you your first grandchild and you will be there to see it all...being healthy will get you there! Maybe that could just be a couple reasons to keep going! :)

One of my favorites

2009-11-04T16:27:00.000-08:00

Angie does one of my favorite Zumba dances, I found this video of someone doing it, but not as awesome as she does...so fun!

You know your abs hurt when...

2009-11-04T13:29:00.000-08:00

it hurts to pump ketchup into your little cup at Arctic Circle.

When I told Marie she said, "Who knew you used your abs to pump ketchup?"

Totally!

Excuse me as I vent.

2009-11-04T06:43:00.000-08:00

I'm tired of...

Fruit loops stepped on by free spirited 5 year olds on my dirty kitchen floor.

I'm tired of having no money to buy the $8 to refill the swiffer wetjet to clean said floor.

I'm tired of four year olds peeing their pants.

I'm tired of buying pullups for said four year old.

I'm tired of seven year olds...wait I can't complain about anything she does.

But I did have to buy her $117 glasses. So I'll whine about that.

I'm tired of 18 month olds crying unless I hold them.

I'm tired of paying $336 dollar doctor bills for said 18 month old.

I'm tired of paying $50 a week in gas to drive myself and my family all over the county. I'm tired of rushing to get the kids dressed. I'm tired of driving across town twice a day to make myself sore.

I'm tired of pilates, and pump fx, and running. I'm even tired of Zumba.

Yes I'm even tired of Zumba.

It's so much easier to be fat. It's so much easier to eat lots of alfredo sauce and snickers bars and pringles, and cream cheese wontons.

Because THAT is what makes me take my mind off free spirited five year olds.

THAT makes me feel so much better.

Remind me, what's so bad about being fat?

Frumpy Dumpy

2009-11-03T07:39:00.000-08:00

Not sure why, seriuosly. But I'm totally just not smiling. I just don't have anything to look forward to that doesn't involve worrying. I'm totally excited about going to get my Zumba certification, but for the life of me I have no idea how we are going to afford to get there.

And I'm looking forward to weighing in on Thursday, in hopes that all this work I've done this week will pay off and I'll make my 50 pound mark, but I'm also very worried I won't do it. More worried than hopeful I suppose.

It's days like this I just want to eat Snickers, ya know?

Winners

2009-11-02T19:57:00.000-08:00

Winners are too busy to be sad,
Too positive to be doubtful,
Too optimistic to be fearful,
And too determined to be defeated.

Get your game on, guys.

NYC marathon

2009-11-01T14:44:00.001-08:00

http://www.cnn.com/2009/US/11/01/nyc.marathon/index.html

We're talking less than 5 minute mile here.

Freakin AWESOME.

Happy Halloween!

2009-10-31T07:23:00.001-07:00

My plan of action is to chew gum and have Marie or Casey with me at all times.

Oh how I love fun size Snickers.

The 60's....

2009-10-29T11:10:00.000-07:00

won't go down in history or anything. There were some good points of that era. The rise of feminism...so glad I can try out for NFL football if I really want to. The first ATM was created...allowing me to safely withdraw money on a Saturday. Oh and there was the walk on the moon...thank goodness we got that accomplished because the millions of dollars that made that possible has done so much for society today *clears throat*.

So over all, the 60's were good.

And I can say that I have the biggest smile plastered all over my face.

Cause I'm so glad to be there now.

And that means I have less that 20 pounds to lose now. Another bonus.

Uh, huh.

The regrets of the next morning.

2009-10-28T07:34:00.000-07:00

*headache*

We all know I don't drink. I don't because of religious reasons, but you know I'd think that's a waste of calories anyway.

But I'm telling ya, this morning I'm pretty sure I have a hangover.

An alfredo hangover.

The night's a bit of a blur. I remember riding in the car with a bunch of hot girls and the chanting of "GIRLS NIGHT OUT" thrumming in my head.

Oh, and I remember ordering a diet coke. That was a good choice.

Then I'm pretty sure I ordered a side of alfredo for my breadsticks. But I thought I said, "no just kidding"...

And then the delicious thick beautiful boat of heaven was infront of me.

And Misty said, "Jeannie, do you want a straw for your alfredo?"

Oh dear. What have I done.

My jeans...

2009-10-26T21:42:00.001-07:00

...hurt my stomach tonight they are so tight. I had two servings of lasagna and salad and bread.

And I didn't workout today.

And I'm totally PMSing.

So seriuosly.

Just let it go, please, whatever mean things I say this week, just let it go.

Ramen Noodles...

2009-10-23T17:42:00.000-07:00

...are probably one of the worst things to eat. High in fat and calories...really no nutritional benefit to them whatsoever. But sometimes...

sometimes...

it's like you just gotta have some. On a cold fall night with hardly any cash in your pocket...

you just gotta have some.

So thank you Mr. Ramen, for the square chunks of deep fried white flour, stripped of all wholesomeness. Your sodium inflated curliness has satisfied my belly for the night.

No weigh in

2009-10-22T20:37:00.000-07:00

No I didn't weigh in.

No I didn't post.

No I'm not saying anything else.

Cause NO ONE commented on my Biggest Loser Recap. COME ON!!! That was flippin hilarious!

*throws hands up in the air*

Biggest Loser Recap Episode 6

2009-10-21T09:20:00.001-07:00

Coach Mo decided last week to take one for the team and convinced them to vote him to go home, instead of psychopath, Tracey...

Dan sees Tracey walk in the door after the elimination round...Thank goodness Dan has been working out, he might have had a heart attack and died right there on the spot.

Personally I don't think the contestants decide who to vote to go home. Ali is actually controlling the game. Seriously...

"Look into my icey blue eyes"...*waves hand like a jedi*...."You WILL vote out Coach Mo..."

So Ali meets everyone at her secret beachfront property and starts a bonfire, tells them to start digging for keys to unlock a chest of treasure. Unfortunately, no one knows what they are playing for.

Unbeknown to them, they are actually digging their own grave sites.

But at the last second Ali must have felt compassion for them and spared their lives. Instead...

She gives the winning team tickets to fly home so the poor men can see their wives again. *wink, wink*

But, the black team got down on their hands and knees and begged to please please spare them emotional hell from Satan Jillian for one week...PLEASE.

So, they were all, "Aight". And off flew the black team.

They all get home and the week begins. No one is in their comfort zone. And as true customary style, Jillian calls from her swanky New York penthouse to check on the contestants.

Amanda explains to Jill that she is completely confused and doesn't know how to use the equipment at the gym. Jill, sips her diet coke, and says, "Don't worry, you guys are losing this weigh in anyway because Dan just ate a box of Krispie Kreme donuts. Go chillax with you friends." So Amanda says, "Aight".

The black team comes home, scared out of their minds that Satan Jillian will be waiting with a week worth of workouts for them.

Jillian is convinced something is holding back Dan. He breaks down and says his family has never accepted him for who he was. Jillian, after applying a generious amount of lip gloss, says...

How many donuts did you eat while you were home Dan? Cause you are going to blow it for the whole team!

So, it's time to weigh in. Bob is confident as his team steps on the scale.

He locks eyes with Ali, and he is momentary confused.

Suddenly his mind is flooded with visions of who he will and won't train next week so that Ali can better control who goes home.

As expected, Dan ruins everything by gaining a pound...

And Dina is left to hitch hike home. Literally. She makes a sudden realization she could have lost another 5 pounds this week if she had gotten her hair whacked off.

Who will Ali send packing next week...?

Q & A

2009-10-20T21:41:00.000-07:00

Angie asks...

I am curious how you have done it? What changes did you make and how have you stayed motivated?

Sometimes it feels like I'm so focused on my goal that I forget what I've accomplished so far. It's fun to reflect on those successes and remember what brought me to where I am today.

I think the biggest difference between the new and old me would have to be confidence. I know that it's ok to say that I'm freakin awesome. Because I am. And no, that's not being cocky, or self absorbed and full of myself. That's me realizing that I am in control of this body. I was created for a great purpose, just as each one of you were. And I've made a commitment to honor that to the best of my ability. I might not be the best at anything, but I am freakin rockin it at alot of things.

Another difference is definitely utilizing my resources. I love my weight watchers meetings because I am a food addict...and you can't give a food addict a plan and throw them on the street. Weight watchers gives weekly support, so I know there are others like me who are rooting for me...who smile at my successes and hold my hand during my failures.

I've learned that motivation comes within...no one else can motivate you. They can create the atmosphere for motivation, but only I control how hard I'll push myself and what I will or won't put in my body. To me, knowing when it comes down to it, that it's my decision, has kept me going a little bit further, to push a little bit harder.

I love inspiring others...I love the feeling of making a difference in both mine and others lives. I love going to the gym and knowing that I can do something that I couldn't a year ago, and not because of a magic pill, or a special shot, but because I worked my hiney off to make it happen. And no one else in the world can take credit for it, except me. Because I am freakin amazing.

Hmmmmmm

2009-10-20T06:03:00.000-07:00

Well, I suppose I should blog, since I haven't really in so long. But I'm not feeling terribly creative today so I might just ramble a little bit.

I got up to do Pump FX, which is a weight lifting class this morning at five. I wouldn't have gone if my weight watchers buddy, Diana, wouldn't have invited me. But I'm really glad I did. I love that class. Remember strength training is really the key to long term weight loss.

I'm signed up to get my Zumba certification on November 14th. I would never actually teach Zumba, I'm not good enough, but I need a group fitness certification to satisfy specific credits at school. This is what I love right now, so that's what I chose. I haven't been to yoga in months, which I do miss terribly. But I love that I can sign up to get my cert in Zumba and not even be nervous. That shows tons for my confidence. I am SO excited to learn what I can.

I've had a bad week though, not sure if I'll have a big gain or not this week. Hopefully I'll still be able to lose. Who knows. I feel strong, just not like I lost weight. I'll keep at it. If I've stuck at it this long, I must have some desire to keep making progress, right?

Ugh, I think I need to go back to bed.

Oh I totally forgot! Duh!!!

2009-10-15T21:58:00.001-07:00

I completely forgot my shout out!!!!

My weight watchers buddy Kathy lost...

45 pounds!!!!!

It's a race to 50 girl!!!

SORRY SORRY SORRY

2009-10-15T20:27:00.000-07:00

Totally forgot to blog today. No big news, I lost a little over half a pound. But as you can see, I haven't been yo yoing recently. That's a really good thing, huh?

Here's the big surprise...

2009-10-08T20:57:00.000-07:00

I did it! I've officially lost 45 pounds!!!!

Which means...I've lost a JORDAN.

Crazy when you think of it that way, huh???

Here I come 50 pounds!!!!

I have a surprise for you...

2009-10-08T10:33:00.001-07:00

but I can't post it until tomorrow.

Just watch it. The whole thing.

2009-10-07T16:15:00.000-07:00

Go ahead, ask me...

2009-10-05T13:23:00.000-07:00

Who just ran a mile in less than 10 minutes?

That's right. ME!!!

9:44!!!!

I haven't ran in months, but I think all that Zumba has been putting me in shape!

Great NEWS!!!

2009-10-02T15:03:00.001-07:00

I've eaten nothing but grapefruit for the past month. How do I look?

Sorta grumpy

2009-10-01T10:02:00.000-07:00

I only lost 2 pounds this week, which I know is good, but I was so diligent this week. It's a little frustrating. No, it's a lot frustrating. I am back on track though, I have been tracking everyday and exercising like crazy.

I'm only doing a picture every other month now, but I'll throw up another fat picture to embarrass myself a little more for everyone this week.

This was Easter 2007, I think.

Do these bunny ears make me look fat? No Jeannie, it's not the bunny ears that's doing it.

Oatmeal

2009-09-30T08:46:00.001-07:00

I made my oatmeal with light soy milk today.

Oh. My. Gosh.

I am in love.

Confused.

2009-09-28T06:56:00.000-07:00

What brought me from giving in to everything I ate to diligently tracking every point that I put in my mouth and eating what I should everyday so far since Thursday?

I really am at a loss.

It's so easy to say no right now, and I seriously can't figure out why. I can't wait for Thursday to get here.

QUITTER

2009-09-24T07:59:00.000-07:00

I'm such a quitter. Oh my goodness. I could NEVER in a million years be vegan.

Three good things came out of the past two days though.

1. The weight watchers diet seems SO much easier now that I've seen the other side of the coin. Ya know what I mean?

2. I LOVE soy milk! I've never been big on the taste of milk, but I actually enjoy drinking soy milk. I bought the "light" Silk brand.

3. If I ever have a client or know someone who is vegan, I have my 2 day experience of knowing what frustrations they go through on a daily basis. Well, I might not understand everything with my HUGE two days of experience, but I'll at least have an idea.

So I'm just going back to my normal pescetarian diet. I'll continue to eat eggs, dairy and the occasional fish taco. (: Oh how I love my fish tacos.

One of my friends from highschool had this as her status update on facebook.

Everyday is God's gift of renewal. Don't focus on yesterday. Don't worry about tomorrow. Live today to the very fullest!!! It is fresh with no flaws and has the potential to be fabulous, but we have to allow ourselves to have a great day!

I felt that this was directed right at me! I just love it!

I'll be posting my weight later when I weigh in. NO idea where I am after this rollercoaster of two weeks.

(Can I give a shout out to Karen! I've noticed how dilegently she reads my blog, is always there to comment and give me uplifting words. Thanks so much!)

WAY harder than I expected.

2009-09-23T14:11:00.000-07:00

Even microwave popcorn has "milk" listed in the ingredients. I'm not sure if it's me not drinking diet soda or me not eating everything in the house that I want. OR if it's a combination of the two, but I feel like absolute CRAP. You know the feeling you get when you are just about to get the flu? Headache, tired achy body, that's me right now.

Originally I wanted to try this Vegan diet until Thanksgiving. But I'm wondering if I can even make it through tomorrow. Or maybe I'll try to limit my soda intake instead. I don't know.

Black beans and rice

2009-09-23T10:39:00.000-07:00

Today I ate something I'd never usually have and I actually LIKED it.

1/2 canned black beans rinsed
1 cup brown rice
1/4 cup salsa
cilantro
8 tortilla chips

DON'T get me upset.

2009-09-22T16:54:00.000-07:00

I'm tired of this bullcrap. I'm mad at myself for not losing over the past months. It's over and done with though. And I think my body thinks right now is a good weight for me. I could probably maintain this weight. The first and foremost problem is I'm not following my WW program, because I just give in to every little craving I have. I just want to eat eat eat!

But I won't be happy.

I started a vegan diet today. Just to try it. I'm curious what it will be like. I also have cut out all artificial sweeteners today. Again, just curious.

I did an hour of pilates this morning. Walked to pick up Jordan from school (2 miles round trip) and I'm running tonight for half an hourish, and then weightlifting class for an hour.

I just don't know what more I can do than that.

I'm a little angry and now I want to prove something.

Funniest workout videos

2009-09-18T12:19:00.000-07:00

Sorry.

2009-09-17T20:09:00.000-07:00

Yeah, I sorta forgot all about this blog thing this week, didn't I?

More bad news.

I didn't weigh in this week either.

I know. I suck.

More bad news.

Next week is finals week. I wish I could think of something clever and funny to say right now, but I can't.

So, watch some guy fall off his bike or something on youtube until I think of something to post again.

Love you!

Was it worth it?

2009-09-11T08:02:00.000-07:00

Looking back at my birthday week I'm trying to decide if a two pound gain was worth all the yummy to my tummy food.

I've decided, yes, yes it was.

Because even though I whine and complain about how long this is taking me, I just love magic cookie bars.

And I did work out all week long, super hard.

And now I have a nasty head cold, so I'm going back to bed. (:

superfoods!

2009-09-09T14:37:00.001-07:00

Thought this was a really good article.

http://www.webmd.com/diet/features/15-foods-to-help-you-lose

Potty break

2009-09-08T13:22:00.000-07:00

Remember before kids?

Yeah, I can't either.

So I had to go number two...and someone is calling about how I need to bring my mom clothes, and go pay her rent because she's in the hospital.

And my 16 month old sees me walk into the bathroom and close the door, which apparently is not allowed since he stood there pounding on the door and yelling at me the entire time.

And Lily and Casey were screaming from the other room that "Lily said she doesn't like me" and "Casey hit me".

*sigh*

THIS is why I stress eat. Because I'm a Mom who can't go number two with just a little piece and quiet.

It's a slow day, so here ya go

2009-09-07T11:50:00.001-07:00

Super powers

2009-09-04T13:18:00.000-07:00

As I was driving home from picking up my fish taco from Bajio today, I was thinking about super powers. Which super power would I want to have if I could have one?

One of the first ones that popped into my head was super strength. One armed pushups, one legged squats, picking up a car for fun. You know that kind of thing. Then I thought, you'd have to be so careful not to break someone's hand when you met them. Maybe it wouldn't be worth it.

Then I thought, what about super hearing? Then I decided that my kids are annoying enough already, I don't need to hear anymore.

I know! What about super speed!!! I could get so much more done in a day! The only problem with that would be I'd have no one to run with me. And that would get lonely.

So I decided I wouldn't have any of them. I just want one super power.

A super metabolism.

I could eat funyuns and snickers and french fries and cream cheese wontons all day and still be a skinny minnie.

And I could have eaten THREE fish tacos instead of the one sitting next to me.

Which superpower would you choose?

BEEP BEEP BEEP (That's me swearing)

2009-09-03T09:56:00.000-07:00

Here's my stupid picture for this stupid month.

Oh YAY. I lost less than half a pound.

The same half a pound I gained last week.

If you look in the dictionary under the word "frustation" this is the picture you will find.

Casey Jr.

2009-09-02T12:23:00.000-07:00

So today I'm trying on a pair of my "skinny" pants and they fit a little better. But I'm talking only a little better *sigh* Well, anyway, just as I was standing in the mirror, trying to see how big my butt looked in them, Casey Jr (3) walks by.

"oooooooooh Mom, those are pretty pants. You look like Aunt Ree!"

How does a 3 year explain that you are looking thinner? By comparing you to a skinny person!

Yes, Casey Jr. got to ride on the horses at the grocery store. Yes he did.

Computer problems

2009-09-01T23:20:00.000-07:00

I had to reboot my computer and when I did, it made my screen streeeeeetch across my monitor. So everything is goooooooooooooing way wider than it should.

This is SO not good when it involves pictures on my blog.

*AHEM*

So I just texted my wonderful, knows how to fix ANYTHING husband, (he's all the way downstairs in the bedroom) and he said he'd fix it in the morning.

Whew!

Cause seriously I don't need to see pictures of me stretched like that. It's giving me nightmarish flashbacks.

Really bad day

2009-08-31T12:46:00.000-07:00

I'm totally having one of those snowball days.

You know, where you wake up in the morning and you stub your toe, then you have a zit, then you have no clean clothes and then your kids dink around, then you go to work and someone complains about your job performance and then you find out your mom is having heart surgery. And then you find out TAMN isn't really real.

*sigh*

So yeah, It's one of those snowball days.

Saboteurs

2009-08-29T11:39:00.002-07:00

So this morning, I'm going through my globs of email just like normal and then I come across this.

From your friends at Chili's

Happy Birthday Jeannie!

Come in for a free dessert!
*with the purchase of any entree.

Now, I said farewell to my Paradise Pie a while back, if you remember.

And now they are pushing it in my face like a bunch of...a bunch of....MEANIES!

Free running.

2009-08-27T14:08:00.001-07:00

For some reason I thought of Cassie when I saw this.

Pretty freakin amazing I think!

I gained!!!

2009-08-27T10:54:00.000-07:00

You'd think as much as I shook my hiney this week, I'd have shaken off some fat!

Oh well, I'll keep pluggin away! Zumba and Yoga tonight!

I'm up about half a pound, I don't have my WW book with me so I'm not sure exactly so I'll update that later.

What do you think?

2009-08-26T15:24:00.001-07:00

http://www.cnn.com/video/#/video/bestoftv/2009/08/25/jvm.peta.whale.fat.billboard.cnn

Ouch

2009-08-26T07:52:00.001-07:00

Yoga, Pilates and Zumba

Oh my!

Food Journaling

2009-08-25T18:38:00.000-07:00

Monday was a bad day...

12 fish and fries
7 baked potato and butter and sour cream (just a little)
4 chips
10 bread and butter late at night. UGH

let's see...did I eat a single vegetable that day...

1 hour of zumba, about 10 minutes total upperbody

NO!

Tuesday...

13 haystack made with a ton of veggies
3 peanut butter sammie
2 LOTS of fresh pineapple
1 small banana
15 pizza and breadsticks.

1 hour of pilates, 1 hour of zumba

Womanizer Oh yeah baby.

2009-08-24T22:51:00.000-07:00

Ok, so I am officially completely hooked on Zumba. All night I've been singing one of the songs from today's Zumba. Womanizer. Soooooooo, I "You Tube'd" it and found this very...*cough* white... girl doing it. She sucks compared to the teacher who taught it tonight, *cough* latino... BUT you get the idea. It's definitely one of my favorite dances!

Sunday blues

2009-08-24T12:56:00.000-07:00

I had a terrific Sunday, too terrific.

1-WW yogurt
3-almonds and string cheese
0-lots of carrots
1-graham crackers
25-cheese enchiladas, chips and salsa
3-a little icecream (I know, can you believe it?)
10-peanut butter, Doritos (not combined!)

I don't know what caused it, but I went on an eating spree. Actually I do know what caused it. I was emotionally eating. Something happened that made me upset and ate to make myself feel better. Now I have to exercise like crazy to try to salvage the week.

Saturday

2009-08-22T11:58:00.000-07:00

Saturday is a special day...

Points

4-protein shake
11-haystack made with white rice (I KNOW I KNOW), cheese, chow mein noodles, and lots of veggies
0-one small plum
10-cheesy bread. No idea how bad this was for me, but i'll guess that much.

total points 25

1 hour of zumba, lots of walking

Friday

2009-08-21T17:47:00.001-07:00

I did ok today, except this afternoon when I got it in my head to buy some chocolate.

Points
4-Bagel made with egg and a string cheese
1-1 cup of cantelope
3-fish taco with lots of salad/salsa
7-rice
6-candy bar
2-a couple of swedish fish
1-1 teas olive oil
1-1 1/2 cups of sauteed veggies, yellow squash, onion, peppers
2-whole wheat tortilla
0-salsa
3-sunchips

33 points

72 ounces of water and diet pepsi

Exercise- 1 hour of zumba

Thursday

2009-08-21T17:41:00.000-07:00

Well, I only ate one meal today. I know that's a bad thing. But I really wasn't hungry when dinner came. And I skipped breakfast.

Points-
7 One baked potato with butter and sour cream
6 Ceaser salad
3 Corn Muffin
7 Onion Rings

I did not have pecan pie, of which i desperately wanted!

74 ounces of water and diet pepsi

23 points

Exercise- One hour of Zumba, One hour of yoga

If I could turn back time...

2009-08-21T08:01:00.000-07:00

If I could find a way
I'd take back all those chips that hurt me
and I'd be skinny today...

If I could climb the stairs
I'd make it to the top to you
Then you'd love me, love me
glutes, abs, quads and hamstrings too...

50 pound goal

2009-08-20T10:14:00.000-07:00

I want to make my 50 pound goal by my one year anniversary at weight watchers which is now only 3 weeks away. That means each week I need to lose...

2.466666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666
66666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666
66666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666666667 pounds per week.

I am going to do my darnedest (is that a word) to make it happen.

But if I don't make it, I'll be skinnier trying, right?

Hey, I need a super reward for 50 pounds lost that I can add as a goal.

Pedicure?

No, too ordinary. We're talking 50 pounds here.

Dinner out?

No, I'll pig out and gain it all back.

New clothes?

No, I'll just lose 20 more pounds and they won't fit anymore.

I need something meaningful. Something I can remember forever. Something I can say, remember when I lost 50 pounds and then I...

Oh, I've got it.

Backpacking Europe!

(Just talked to the husband and he said no and to go pay the late cable bill.)

So now what?

*Sigh* Help me! What should it be?